Note: I only post when i need to relieve myself from the stress in me. Im not always emo.

You know when i always hang out with big groups consisting of my close friends, i tend to commit this same mistake over and over again.

I lose control of myself.

Im a person who has extreme moods. Very happy/hyper or very sad.

Yeah im trying to overtake the feeling of happiness over sadness when i was socializing with ppl these days. Nobody wants to get close to ppl who bring their moods down too.

What i mean when i said i lose control of myself is that i will want to run ahead, take control and participate in everything. (You may wonder, isnt that a good thing?)

I will neglect my best friend, who always just want to stay in the flow. I cant stop running. I cant help being a bit in the control of everything since nobody wants to take control. & i may be a bit bossy at times.

Its like, im high on drugs. Laughing loudly, making crude comments/actions without thinking much. I only realize what i have done after the occasion. When everyone starts to go home. I will regret that i didnt spend much time with so-and-so person, i didnt show care and concern for another so-and-so person.

I started worrying when nothing could be done. Would the other have bad impression of me? Are they annoyed or irritated at me?

It sucks you know. I hate that feeling! Its like, i never learn from my mistake. Never!